#NaPoWriMo2020 Challenge Day 2
For the second time
I leave one thing in search of another
Another, another which is better
A better that I think will change my life forever
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For the second time
I lose deep old friendships
Friendships that I thought would last forever
The forevers that I thought would also benefit me as it did them
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For the second time
I lose love
Love which once made me powerful
Powerful yet powerless at the same time
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For the second time
I feel numb to all the pain
Pain that doesn’t come one by one
One that comes all at once and leaves me devastated
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For the second time
I’m left with nothing
Nothing to love, live for, or die for
Nothing but my memories, emotions, and the little bit of strength that keeps me alive
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For the second time
I build walls around myself
Walls which hold me together
So I don’t fall apart by the weight of everything that I’m holding in
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For the second time
I try to move on
Remembering to never let anyone else in
In where they could break everything
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For the second time
I hope that the next time
I’m strong when this situation arrives
Strong enough to face it and yet not break down
For the third time…
Wow, that was intense to rewrite! Little did I know that I’d be doing all this for the third, fourth, and I don’t know how many more times. But hey, that’s life I guess. I’m definitely stronger now though, so at least one of my wishes from this poem came true.
I’ll be back with more of my poetry masterpieces like this.
Until then, I hope you keep reading…
… the blue diary xx